I was fine when I left for work this morning, but by the time I walked home this evening, I was sick. Sick sick sick with whatever Shane brought home from Vienna – and NOT Manner wafers, though if Manner wafers were an illness, I don’t think I’d want to be cured. We sat on the couch and groaned like zombies and ate whatever sounded palatable whenever the zombie haze parted enough for us to be hungry. I think we both had leftover corn chowder and leftover cornbread, but I couldn’t swear by that. I also can’t guarantee that I was able to taste whatever I did eat, though it probably tasted somewhat like corn.
I’m officially sick with whatever zombie bug Shane brought back from Vienna. I’m not a zombie in the brain-eating sense or in the Fela Kuti song sense, more in the shuffling around mumbling because my brain isn’t functioning properly sense. This resulted in some very interesting dream fragments:
- I was reading Superman graphic novels. But like, the old Superman, not the new Superman, even though neither my waking nor sleeping brain knows anything about it. I also rolled down a big green hill.
- Amy was selling antiques and crafts (though not anything fiber-related) at a swap meet and I was helping out, except that I didn’t know anything about what we were selling, including price or provenance. This made it complicated when people asked for more wine.
- We weren’t selling wine, but we did have an astounding array of small bottles of wines for the many people who were working at Amy’s booth.
- A girl asked me about a person who was mentioned in some olde timey pamphlet that she found at the booth. For some reason she had decided to do her research project about this person, even though she knew nothing about this person OR the project. I asked lots of questions and felt like a real reference librarian.
Now it is 10am and I’ve bought two bottles of NyQuil and dropped a big chunk of honeycomb in my tea, so I need to attend to the waxy bits floating in my mug and also to the NyQuil and then to the inside of my eyelids. I will report back if I have any additional interesting dreams.
I’m back in Virginia after five days in Illinois spent visiting friends and learning about metadata. I had a really nice time, despite the fact that I came down with the flu that’s been sweeping the country the day before I left. SB and I are both still sick, but we made the most of our sick day by watching an extreme amount of tv, whining a lot, and buying a humidifier as the awfully cute Hello Kitty one stopped spraying steam out of her ears this morning. It was good to visit, it’s good to be home, and I sincerely hope to feel better soon.
How am I?
Physically? I’m kind of a mess. I’m not really eating or sleeping much. It’s not that I don’t want to – I’m tired all the time and I really do enjoy eating – but when I try to eat, I get full really quickly and nauseous if I continue to eat what I know is a normal portion. Exception to the rule seems to be chips and salsa. I try to go to bed at a decent hour – but then I either lay awake, or do this weird sleep thing where I wake up every 30-45 minutes convinced that I haven’t actually been asleep. I got 8-10 solid hours of sleep at Shawn’s Friday night, which was some kind of miracle, but today I was awake early again (thanks, people picking up yard waste).
Emotionally? Again, a mixed bag. Some days are really good, some days are really low. Some days are in between. Things seem to be mellowing out a bit with work and relationships and such, but I’m still up and down – just a little more in control. I think the biggest Agent Of Evil is boredom, really. I long for summers off, but I know it wouldn’t be a good thing for me emotionally. I’m not a workaholic, but I definitely deal better with the rest of life when I’m working.
Financially? Good, actually. Well, I spent $40 on underwear today which I probably should’ve saved, but things are pretty stable for me right now, money-wise. It’s a good feeling. I still have bills and such – but I’m on top of them, so that’s a good thing. I still owe money to my lawyer, but that’ll be paid off in a couple of weeks when I get my deposit back. Definitely still living paycheck-to-paycheck, but am hoping that’ll change a bit.
Professionally? Job sucks, but what are you going to do? There’s a couple of things on the horizon that I’m thinking about, but nothing really worth mentioning – just some changing around that might lead to opportunities worth considering. Not sure what’s up with UIUC, but I’ve made it my goal to have my GSLIS application out by early August. I’m dying to get into school, but am feeling strangely dispassionate about the whole thing right now, which means that I’ve continued to stall.
So it’s kind of a mixed bag, but I’m getting by. I’ve been reading a lot, which is good, but challenging as well. I rode my bike yesterday and today. Tonight we went out for sushi with friends, which was fun. Gambit has been quite bad lately, and his neediness is just getting to be too much. It’s looking very likely that Nate will take him back, and I think that’s probably the best thing for all of us, though I will miss my boy cat. This week I mainly work at the hospital, and it is my friends anniversary with Sarah on Sunday – ten years. Shawn and I had a nice night together Friday, and I got to wake up with him the last two days. Life is a curious thing, friends.
Spent half the weekend in the horrid haze of a deep fever and cough – and the rest of it entranced by hot, hot Aragorn. We brought Sarah up to speed on the trilogy Friday and Saturday, then went to see Return of the King tonight to top it off. Russ was down on Saturday, so we had curry. Finished House of Leaves on Saturday – whew – on to less convoluted reading materials. But first, sleep.
Friends have been dealt hard blows this weekend – dealing with hard things, working through hard problems – I feel blessed that what’s on my mind most right now is how much I’m going to miss that boy when he goes home for Christmas. I know it’s less than a week – but we see each other almost daily, so even a brief absence can feel pointed after such constant comfort. *