and it begins

And tomorrow, after three and a half years out, I go back to school.

I am so many things right now – cold, anxious, tired, confused, panicky, cold (mainly cold), excited, thrilled, scared – in a word, terrified. Terrified because that entails fear and delight. I’m afraid I’ll fall flat on my face. I’m afraid it won’t be what I thought I wanted. I’m afraid I won’t have the skill to keep all my juggling balls in the air on this perfectly laid out schedule of mine. I’m excited to be a part of a department that is doing such cool things. I’m excited that my whole life has changed yet again. I’m excited that doors are finally opening.

Tomorrow morning, for the first time in my entire life, I will stand on the corner with my lunch and my book bag and take the bus to school. I’d say that’s very 25 of me.

0 thoughts on “and it begins

  1. happy new year/birthday/school day! The bus is a fun and surreal little universe, but emblematic of the oddity that is grad school. Hope all goes well–just enjoy things. 🙂


  2. luckily for you, gslis doesn’t force you to actually juggle. english is a whole other story–and the jester hats are really demeaning.

    hey, i’m happy for you! i’d give anything to wait in the early morning cold for that green line bus…except of course my streisand memorabilia.


  3. I’m so very very very proud of you. I can’t say much more than that. I have tears in my eyes! A tip though, PB&J is still as good in grad school as grammer school. Have fun, and dazzle.


  4. Wow, congratulations, good luck, etc. 🙂 I’m sure you’ll do fine. Last week on my first day of school, I felt very much like a little kid going to school for the first time ever. It had been a long break, but it felt good to be moving forward again for the first time in a long time. Have fun! I can’t wait to hear how your first day went!


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